Ah! The guileless smile I once had and may never have. Now, all facial expressions have hidden meanings. (Source: funmag.org)
If I smiled only when feeling happy,
How did I make my husband think all was well between us
When he forgot my birthday whilst at work yesterday
How do I make my harsh bosses think I like them
When I’m passively considering killing one of them as a lesson
How would I make the world believe my life a bed of roses
When asked about the exams I actually failed
How would I make pastor keep believing God only gives riches
When I haven’t eaten today as at this night of writing this
If I cried only when sad,
How do I make my lover know how hurtful his deceptions are
Hoping he won’t think I cry because I’m moved by his sugary words
How did I let my roommate know the scorpion sting hurt
Hoping he didn’t think it was because of my heartbreak
How would I let her know how much I missed her
Hoping she wouldn’t think I hurt from kneeling for too long
How would I make them know how funny and ridiculous they were
Hoping they wouldn’t think I was hot with jealousy
I have learnt what you wanted me to
You told me I needed to be smart and savvy
That I had to stop being naïve and grow up
And realise things aren’t always so simple
Well, I hope you can tell I have followed you obediently
And this is not just an act to get you off my neck
I hope you can tell I appreciate your seeing this
And I am not somewhat indifferent to what you really think
If only writers and writings were always sincere…
I Feel Shadows 